he was pretending he was at school and he was coloring pictures for his "school" work. he kept saying "watch mommy" and i would say "ok" and glance at him now and then while flipping through my cookbooks. then he said it, and he said it innocently:
"mommy, i don't think you know what watching is."
ouch.
i stopped, looked him in the eye and asked "what do you mean?" and he said "watching is when you really look at someone."
i put my stuff down and i really watched him draw. and i thanked God for my blunt little boy who lovingly and naively called me out on something i needed to be called out on.
and through the rest of this day it is fresh on my mind...
what watching really is.... what listening really is....
and how much i want to be a mommy, a wife, a friend, who really watches.
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oh joy . . .
is that last picture cole??? he looks so much like justus!! wow!
oh, lots to say. did you get instagram? i'm not sure i told you i thought you'd love it with your iphone but i definitely thought it. and secondly, i love this. it reminds me of a movie (avatar) that instead of saying "i love you" they say "i see you". same thing, right? and only people who watch - see. i feel very seen by you elisabeth and i see you watching your boys, right to the heart, so often. i think you are well on your way to watching and thank God for little boys who remind us when we aren't!!
So very true. Beautiful boys. Beautiful mom. Love you.
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