A full heart

Late at night and I can't sleep....

My pregnant body acts very different than my normal body and it sometimes does things like fight sleep...

And so I've been reflecting on the day, and my heart feels full. Very very full.

Not a second wasted....

Wiped noses, wiped bottoms. Pouring cereal, counting pretzels, washing grapes and celery, cutting into age appropriate pieces. piles of laundry in and out of the washer, then the dryer. Piles of laundry still left to be folded. Catch with the 1 year old who could play catch all day. Countless games of Candy land and hide and seek with the 3 year old who is a lover and who just wants love back. A five year old is king of his class for the week, I see him walk out of school with his crown on and he is proud and I am prouder. A few sweet moments of sitting, interrupted by "mommy come see this" ... and I really don't want to get up, but even at the moment I know that I don't want to miss it. Onions chopped, dough kneaded, sauce simmered, cheese grated...chicago style pizza is worth it. Diapers changed, kisses, hugs, tickles..... All the while listening to andrew Peterson and pentatonix and Sara groves and Disney. A few moments stolen to sing and play the piano. A quick phone call with my dear friend - did her boy really lose his first tooth? Where has the time gone.... But I can't and won't be sad. My here and now is so precious and each of these little moments is so precious and with all of my heart I thank my God. My best friend comes home from work and i meet him on the porch and kiss him and tell him to sneak in, so together we can peek at our 3 boys playing a silly game together, the littlest brother may not know it, but he is "it". and together our hearts are full.

And now I will sleep. I hear someone talking to themselves in bed, and maybe I will need to tend to that, but tonight I really don't mind...