mountains here I come!!

we're leaving in two days for vacation in Colorado.
i have been daydreaming about being in the mountains for months, and it's almost here.
i love mountains - so much so that they are really my comparison for all euphoric experiences in my life...anything that just really feels beyond explaining... the way that it makes me feel deep down - i compare it to being in the presence of, or even better yet, on the top of a great mountain. and soon i will be surrounded by them for 9 days. thank you God.
i've learned that having expectations is never good for me - the best that can happen is that they will be fulfilled, which isn't really that amazing if that's what I had already planned out and hoped for. it's so much freer to leave room for God to surprise me.
so I do my best to live life expectation free. This isn't always easy, yet I like it.
I am going into this vacation without many expectations - except for the mountains of course.
They will surely not disappoint me.
my boys are in their room pretending to take a bath in their pretend chimney. other than the occasional injury, which sounds tragic yet can be fixed with a mommy kiss, they play together great these days. the chimney game is a favorite right now - i think it stemmed from the big bad wolf story, yet it's taken on a life of its own.
I love to just listen to them talk and laugh and imagine.
we're hoping to move soon, and just these past few days I have had a few drastic emotional ups and downs - finding houses that I loved and briefly and happily imagined our family in (which of course was perfect in my mind) - only to shortly thereafter find out that it won't work.
I think to myself "why do I have to go for it 100% in my mind - can't i hold back a little bit and then the disappointment won't be so strong?"
but i think that's just life, and that's just me. as long as these ups and downs don't really shake me. I do have faith. I trust that God knows the big picture, and He's taking care of us.
If our finances, and Tom's job, and our house was all easy and figured out, then we wouldn't so easily feel the need for our faith the way we desperately do. I don't think I would trade that. No, I wouldn't. What would life be without active faith in our God? Faith that deepens....
Justus' vocabulary has exploded this summer, he tells us everything on his mind and it's precious. My favorite right now is "I wove woo Mom, I wove woo", (strong emphasis on the word "woo"), said while pointing straight at me.
=)
We are excited for airplanes, for mountains, for new places, for seeing old friends.... cooler weather, good quality time with family, hikes, lots of cribbage, fun music in our rental car....
we're so excited.
Colorado or bust!!