I was alone for most of the hours of my day when I lived there. My life could not be more different now. My life is so full and my heart is so full. Megan told me recently of something she heard... When someone says to you "you must have your hands full" a good response could be "you should see my heart!" Or something like that. And although I doubt ill ever say that to someone (I prefer to not initiate awkward moments in conversation with strangers), that is it for me right now. My days are full and my heart is full with this family God gave me.
I am tired most of the time and the days often feel long and I have one that never stops talking and one that whines a lot as of late. and a third born whom I think we have spoiled just a bit (oops) and a baby that now quickly scoots through the whole house.
But to me they are JOY.
All my moments aren't full of nothing but joy, but my big picture of this house and our working through life and God-following together really is joy and I couldn't be more thankful.
So maybe i will try to share more little snippets of our life.
We are about to enter into a new homeschool stage that excites me greatly. And oh, I've been asking God constantly to guide me as I really want to raise these boys His way, and what does that look like? And the truth that has somewhat transformed me and my level of peace - do not worry about tomorrow. Trust Me - is one Ive been clinging to and choosing each day. (If you ask me, it's a secret to happiness. And I didn't make it up, Jesus said it clearly:)
I've had more days than normal lately of thinking "am I messing this up?"
But I am choosing grace - it covers me and i can know that this isn't about me. And may I be a grace giver to all those around me.
PS if you ever want some good laughs, my blog from Japan is www.xanga.com/libbyruth
4 comments:
lately i have been thinking/feeling/pondering that living in grace ourselves is the best gift we can give our children. it most likely means that we are able to love them unconditionally and that sets them up to be able to fail and grow and love...all the important human stuff. i am glad for you and your family, that you are covered in grace. AND i looked up your xanga thing. wow on so many levels. your life WAS so different then. you and tom looked so young. and simeon WAS thin as a month old. you weren't exagerrating! but still a cutie. i am glad for you too that you are where you are: full of joy, grace, children, at home in jersey, and back to blogging. love you friend.
how sweet that grace flows from you to me. May it flow back again and on and on. Thank you for this. I love you.
I really think you're right. About the living in grace ourselves. Lately I've been wondering if I'm making my life too much about being a good mom and not as much about just loving my God. One can be a "good mother" without leaving her kids what really matters. but as they see me walking with Him, they will learn.
That is my hope. Love you too friend.
this is wonderful... i love it.
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