This Peace

So many words to say, but I'm opting for silence
So many days to live
I thinking I'm sitting this one out
Cause something I've been chasing finally stopped to let me catch it
Something I've been longing for and dreaming of. . . .

It's a whisper in my ear
It's a shiver up my spine
It's the gratitude I feel for all that's right
It's a mystery appeal that's been granted me tonight
This peace

It's something so elusive
Something close but far away
It's the home that I can't live in yet somewhere in outer space
And sometimes I barely miss it when I walk into the room
The curtains are still swaying and I feel the air move

And it whispers in my ear and it shivers up my spine
It's the gratitude I feel for all that's right
It's a mystery appeal that's been granted me tonight
This peace

No time to grab a camera
No time to write it down
Just time enough to breathe it in
And linger . . . . . . .
It's a whisper in my ear
It's a shiver up my spine
It's the gratitude I feel for all that's right
It's a mystery appeal that's been granted me tonight
This peace
This peace

This Peace - Sara Groves

little boys lovin' life

hard to get

and death strikes again. it always takes us anaware...
and no matter how much I know that life is uncertain, that i have no clue what's in store for tomorrow, that tragedy will strike in this sin-scarred world, never am i prepared for it.
not him....
not them... not now!
back to simple faith, like a child.... I tell my boys that he is with Jesus now, living with Him instead, and to them that seems to make sense.
but what about the people left here, what about the pain?
we are all dying... and this world is not our home. it really isn't.
God is good, I do not doubt that, not at all in fact.
But somehow I feel like it's easier for me to trust for myself, that if I were to lose the person closest to me, that God would be enough, that His promises and truth would be all I had yet all I really needed...yet it's not me, it's others that are in pain.
and its harder to trust God for someone else.
"Nothing can separate you from My love. not even death".
But what about the pain???....
Simeon asked "Do you think Elijah's grandpop is asking God if he can come back to Elijah's house?"
Don't we wish we knew, buddy.
I do trust, and I believe God is good.
what else is there??
yet i don't get it.

and that makes three

ITS A BOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =)

it doesn't take much...

its been awhile since i've added to my list....


76)the start of football season
77)hope
78)New York Times crossword puzzles
79)knowing the perfect thing to do to make someone you love happy
80)deep breaths
81)a baby kicking inside of you
82)jumproping
83)a new friend
84)the perfect book that you can't wait to snatch a minute with
85)lazy days
86)the Psalms
87)salads
88)your birthday week

almost-fall days and a little entertainment

Justus loves to sing these days. When we all shared a room in Colorado we learned that he wakes up every morning and sings and sings. The featured songs are "Twinkle, Twinkle", "You Never Let Go" and "King of the Jungle".... just in case it wasn't completely clear =)

The weather today is amazing. Glorious. Every year when these cool, breezy, crisp, almost-hoodie type of days start popping up I am invigorated from the inside out and I think "it's amazing that the weather can do this to a person." But it can. Thank you Jesus for September. Ah.... breathe it in...

I've had some harder days with more turmoil in my heart than I would like and less sleep than I would like... but I am hearing God's voice rise above the others and that makes it OK. "Trust me." He says that a lot to me. My sister reminded me recently of one of my favorite quotes by the late and wise Rich Mullin that starts with "I would rather live on the verge of falling than to live in some kind of piotistic illusion of moral excellence..." oh, i really would. but so often when I'm on the verge of falling it's uncomfortable and I want to feel more steady and grounded and so I work to right my thinking and fix myself.... but that's right where God wants me. leaning really hard. I don't have to be OK and "figured out" at all moments.... really the kind of life I yearn to live is full of faith that comes from not being figured out at all. God, keep me on the verge of falling.

"BE STILL AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD". that is what I hear in the wind this afternoon.

thankful

Tom got a new job.

He's teaching ESL at the University of Delaware and he loves it.

I thought I should share, since I've surely shared of my struggles with trusting and faith.

We've been praying for a job like this for him for years and we are so, so thankful.

We don't want to stop living by faith though, not at all...

please pray that with us.

And today makes 5 years that he and I are a team and it has been a wonderful adventure.

I feel so, so blessed....